with photography
for the past few months, i havent been able to capture anything significant or worthwhile
its always been like this for me, there will be a few weeks or months of pure energy, passion, and dedication
and then it dries up
like a rasin in the sun
i dont have any desire to take photos
and i lose it..or most of it anyways
ive always been a firm follower of technique and high-techniques
this goes for everything, im obsessive with being structurally adaquet and foundationally secure
i guess there are certain fears that restrain me from not worrying about it
but ive never minded that
until i felt like i had not much more to go
NOW! this is not a sign of ignorance or extreme confidence (cockiness)
it is a sign of worry..worry of plateuing
or even worse, a declination of skill
that fucking bothers me (some times to depression..i know, hella sad.)
but it happens
i forget how to draw or take photographs
not necessarily forget, but will undermine what ive learned
when i believe that my subconscious will be able to deal with the rest if my hands are unconsciously moving
and part of that is true for most of art making when youre “in the mode”
and this is where the best products usually comes from
a spontaneity in the course of your work
but there is also a level of awareness you must have in order to continue your pursuit
as artists, you must be aware..photographers especially
and an open receptivity to your surroundings that essentially “free” us from our binding presets
not aiming for a certain response or ambiguity
neither blocking or absorbing our environment, but simply responding to it
this is my personal cure to artists-block
(or photographers-block..i dont consider myself an artist yet..read the title, ARTIST IN TRANSITION ^_^)
i take my camera outside, without any preset, pre-imagined, pre-anything photograph in mind
simply outside interacting and responding to the environment through the viewfinder
and ive been getting some great photographs doing this
regretfully, when i do have a preset image, i rarely am able to capture it
unless all conditions are in my favor (light, texture, figure, emotion, camera model*, lens, etc)
that wont be happening anytime soon 
here are some images from today that i took with an open and clear mind
(i realize there is no solidified way in actually achieving an open mind or any of this, we are all individuals who prefer different methods)
but this works best for me
there is no real conceptual connection between these images (yet? (;)
contextually, they are all black and white and geographically identical in locale
final project 1
final project 2
final project 3
final project 4
final project 5
final project 6
final project 7
***these photographs will be used in my foundations class freshman final project at cornish along with others, finished product will be done in 4 weeks along with artist statement***
**also, i never undermine actual technique, so as much as i like to say i have to be aware and receptive to spontaneity…i am also hoping for constant control of my technical skills**
